worring

i'm loosing my mind. what am i going to do when he's gone? he's leaving on monday! i'm so scared. boobah doesn't seem to know what's going on. i wonder how it's going to hurt him, what is he going to think when daddy stops coming home. how am i supposed to make sure that he doesn't forget about his daddy? i love my husband with all my heart, i don't want him to go but i want him to be happy. i know he's happy with me but i'm sure that this is what he's wanted to do from day one. i thought i could do it but now i'm thinking that it's not going to work. i don't know how to do this.

i have to go stay with my grandma just after hubby leaves. hopefully it will keep my mind off of him going. i'm going to miss him like mad but i'll have things to do. she's getting a knee replacement so i'm going to take boobah and stay with her until she can get around on her own.

my biggest fears is what happens if he comes home and i'm not the girl for him anymore? what happens if he changes and i'm not what he needs in a wife anymore. what if he finds someone new?

i love him! he's my world.