friends

you know, it's hard now for us to hang out with friends. i never know what to talk about. i don't know what's going on at school or anything so i really don't have anything to talk about. worries me, what if i'll never really talk to people again. i want to have friends. i love to talk. but in march i get to start all over again. moving to alabama will test me to the fullest. but my husband leaving me will test me even further.

right now he's talking to one of his friends. the only question all of his friends ask is "when will you be back?" it bugs him to have to tell them that he wont be back.

but i guess....i have to clean and do some homework. we'll see how today goes.

 - he gives me my smiles for the next few months. it just hurts when i look at him and see his daddy. but without him i don't know what i would do. i love my boys.